6/12/2019 0 Comments Helena RoerichThe Moment we " lost equillibrium " at the Powwown was the moment I shared with a neighbor that I felt like I was all alone. I told her that though I walk often like I am connected to the biggest Tribe on Earth -- that, watching all the Dancers prep each other with facepaint...adjusting feathers and hair; sewing on last minute talismans...I was left feeling -- Alone. I had someone loving and supporting my Artwork and general Evolution...but ...If I had a complaint...this was it. Right after I was propelled intu the material world where every task and encounter with others -- became very physical -- And it wasen´t until a few days ago when I realized the power of my, " mistake ". I know...I´m the first one to tell you that there is no such thing as a mistake. I have taken this teaching to the extreme since a very early age; tearing all the erasers off my pencils as a child so that if I drew something I didn´t like -- I HAD to make it morph intu something I was happy with -- If I wrote the wrong words I would need to pause and correct. This said, after you understand the reason behind your suffering... and your role in it -- it´s easy to see your action as a "mistake". For whatever reason -- you need to revisit lessons from time to time until you master your thought and word choices. Up until today I was going deeper and deeper intu physical reality -- soooo much so that my body literally felt like it weighed 3 x it´s normal weight! My limbs....soooo heavy....reality soooo thick....i couldn´t keep my eyes open!! I have been told by many that my energy is like the energizer rabbit. Naturally...I move; Glide from one activity to the next -- no stimulants needed besides the green tea or occasional cup of coffee ( Though our Green Goddess, in her orbit intu our sphere, does have an amplifying effect of my natural inclinations ) So, you can imagine my confusion and panic when my speed and thought processes gained 500lbs! I went so far intu the deep night-- 12 hours at a time -- the children adjusting their cycles with me; getting more and more pillows and fluffies...and no dreams....just deeper and deeper and deeper until oneday, a few days ago -- The dreams finally began. Now, every night for the past 5 nights they have come: each better than the next. So this has been a positive side-effect of the physical reality change -- Is that the children seem to really like all the sleep. O´nah has even remarked, " Mom, why don´t those other people sleep like this? They´re totally missing out...". The cuddle an fuss and make perfect little sleeping hollows. For a brief period we were interrupted when our air conditioner broke -- reminded harshly that we ARE in the DESERT....in Summer; we ducked and dived intu every cold place we could find with the peak of our discomfort having us soaking blankets before we laid down to sleep so that we could cover ourselves in the cold dampness. Yes. The air-conditioner is fixed now -- But the fragility of our place here in the desert has made it´s point. This phase of the experiment...and plea...has reached it´s end. Which brings me to our Helena Ivanovna Roerich, White Solar Dog, WIFE of Nicholas Roerich , Pioneer of the Sovereignty Movement. I mention WIFE first here, because in Helena´s case, this was where her FOUNDATION of BRILLIANCE received so much of its strength from. They were a pair!!! And as a Polar Kin ( rotating thru Dog, Serpent, Eagle and Sun ) her devotional aspects were activated and she truly was a SOLAR DOG STAR.
With the Power to Claim my own Story -- She, is my Raven. May my Dark Side aspire to her greatness /\ I thank Ra:ah for the Journey intu his count of 78. My count I found, added up differently /\ . And that´s ok. May I except my ´loneliness´ at times. It is far greater than the dense thickness of everything and everyone clinging to you. To Be Connected...is to be a part of a web...where you never really are alone...And yet, may be called on to walk paths that no one else is walking. EVERYTHING still has weight...dead weight, living weight, and potential weight. Knowing what surrounds you -- and learning to work with the different mediums is a Fine Art. AND -- I like how my Jewell encourages my growth. I even enjoy the solitude the study brings me. And if this means I am becoming more " white "....more, civilized...then so be it. I feel confident my Shield and Compass of Colors will continue to show the way. I don´t fear loosing what can´t be lost anymore. Strange to revisit these lessons... /\ Humbled. AND -- I am brought to Blue Planetary Monkey and Red Rhythmic Moon. The Remedy Project resurfaces but with a whole NEW REASON -- And NECESSITY to really MANIFEST this time. May the Path be Clear /\. I would also like to bring voice to three very special people who may be entering our lives now. A Mother, A Husband, and a Best Friend. May Spirit Guide All of Our Hearts and Feet as the Future becomes Today /\ A Yum Hunab Ku -- Eva Maya E Ma Ho...
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